WOW!!!!

Its been a minute since I been on my blog but I have good reasons on why... Its been quite a journey and I have no regrets overall I am so ecstatic with how life been turning...lol First and foremost I must tell I finally cut my hair so I am officially NATURAL yeah for me I am loving my hair and looking so forward to what my journey may brings. I am currently working a new job which so far I love its a challenge but I wouldn't have it any other way. A challenge keeps me on my toes so I wont complain. lol As far with my social life last blog I posted "He is not my man, but I wish he was" well let's just say he's not on my mind nor in my life it was simply a temporary crush. But I must say indeed I learned from that particular experience which is "Your time is so precious and it should not be wasted so easily" I am single and proud! I am waiting on GOD that's all I can do because I want a man that was created just for me. I believe that's worth waiting for. I promise to keep everyone updated with what's in store because its Miss Lucas side of the story, there is no other to tell you whats going on in my life but ME!!!

He is not my man! But I wish he was...

Before I begin to tell my side of the story its not like what it seems... I am not trying to break up no happy home but I am intrigued with this man that is not my man is it my fault that apparently he must not be happy because if he was he wouldn't be confessing his wishes on wanting me in every way a man will want a woman. No I haven't cross the line and No I wont because at the end of the day I am a woman that is made of substance with indeed a purpose to be #1. 2ND place doesn't fit me quite well but I must admit I am liking the attention he is giving me. Text messages filled with sweet somethings lol Am I wrong for my actions? Its so innocent I promise but I cant help the fact he is infatuated with this creation. But yes I understand he is not my man which is cool I wish he was but I don't believe in stealing because karma is always on the prowl. So as I slowly let things slip away how does one let go of something so wrong but at the same time feel so good... To be continued!!!

The past is just the past......

...Just thinking to myself on how one person can mean so much to you once upon time and now its like BLAH!! I never thought I can be feel so free not being attached to someone with my heart. Back then I didn't put my heart first now I understand the importance of my heart. My heart is my everything its guarded because I refuse to allow it be used and abused for a temporary moment. I need more than I wish.. and What if.. I deserve better and I will get it just not when I want it but when GOD see fit to when the time is right. WOW! I came a long way too many heartaches, too many disappointments, and too many "I don't knows" it feels to good to be in control of your own feelings again. I have no regrets of the past; the past is what made me who I am today. Behind the scars and the past pain.. Beauty lives and she will never fade away! I came too far to allow the past experiences to become a current experience. I learned from it and now I am moving on to something greater my purpose. The desires of my heart will manifest patiently I await but in the meantime I am gonna just live my life...

....Joshua Aaron Huiel...

My Sweet baby nephrew that I never got a chance to meet but I know there is a God that makes no mistakes. I know you are in a better place in our father's hands. You are gone but not forgotten there will be a spot in our hearts that will never be replaced.. On this day you will be forever missed as your perfect body was laid to rest; your spirit is now a heavenly angel that joined the rest to watch over us forevermore ...~~In the loving memory of JAH~~

~New Beginning~

On May 21, 2010 I decided to create this blog. It was time for me to share my thoughts, my wisdom, and my stories. I have nothing to hide only have things to share because I am an open book. On this blog I will be sharing it all so if you didnt know me you soon will because I will be revealing my side of the story. My perception is important to me because its what I see its my opinion its all what I know to have because its coming from my eyes. This is indeed personal to me. I wont fake it nor sugar coated it.So if you have a judgemental mindset, I advise you think twice before following me.